Woe Be The One Who Can No Longer Plan

I am a planner. I like to sit down and write down my course of action, what I want, and basically brainstorm a roadmap for myself. It helps with my anxiety because I know at what point I absolutely need to get things done by to be alright. This summer is not planned. There are a few markers, special dates, but nothing else is really set in stone. However, I'm not that worried or anxious. If I sat down and thought about the uncertainty of the next few months, sure I could send myself into a downward spiral of fear but I don't want to and I know better. Trusting in God is something I've never been good at but the few desperate times when I've succumbed to giving up trying to figure things out and just let nature set its course, I've been shocked to see the calamities magically solve themselves. That's God taking charge, helping a girl out.

Not knowing where I'll be in the next few years is terrifying. As someone who likes to know and have an understanding of the next steps ahead of time I cringe. So this is scary but it's doable. It's necessary I think because it forces me to truly trust in God. He's not really testing me, he's just pushing me in the right direction. The past few weeks I've learned a lot more about myself than I would have been able to had I made an intricate plan for this summer. It opened up opportunities that although were very stressing, were worth it because at one point I knew all I could do was pray and hope everything would turn out alright. It turned out better than alright too and I can't take sole responsibility for that. (Literally, 80% chance of rain and it never rained)

In any relationship, the feeling of love sways and fluctuates. What matters is the strength of the intimacy, the friendship, and the understanding that no matter what the other has their back. I love television and an example would be Adam and Kristina Braverman from NBC's show Parenthood. Together they conquered life's hardships and dealt with all of life's curve balls. Together they created and managed so much, it's incredible. All that they were able to achieve was only wrought from the strength of their individual persons acting as a whole and united force. 

But like love,our relationship with Christ will go through hardships but we must endure them with as much grace as possible. In those moments of despair, cry unto the lord because he will always be there. He will always be your partner and you both are a team. So let's build that deep trust and level of commitment to work together. (P.S I've always heard that prayer said from the heart at 3pm are especially heard by God.)

Put your trust in God. Let him help you out. Be humble with your successes and graceful of your failures. He's got a plan and he'll let you know when you're ready. Just don't lose faith. I believe in you and so does He.

Bible Verses to Read:

Isaiah 41:10

Jeremiah 29:11-14